cold weather makes bel lazy

it's been so cold and rainy lately that it almost feels like up there in camerons all over again.. oh how i miss rbs, the times spent learning bout God, experienced loads of quiet n devotional moments just God n us up there for a month, separated fr the world.. i rmb unc dexter saying something bout rbs being an artificial environment, that the real world isn't anything like this.. how true it is, up there we were so excited every morn to wait upon God, to listen to Him speak to us and the privilege of Him speaking through us.. every day there's always something new and exciting to learn bout this amazing God.. His presence was always felt and oh what a blessing it was.. i do miss those times, though it's been like, 3 years? ok back to earth now.. haih confession time.. havent been reading the bible n praying consistently for the past few weeks.. i'm starting to feel the effects of not keeping in track with God.. just yesterday i was a lil off n moody the whole day just bcoz of a lil irritation here n there.. i've become less patient n easily angered.. sorry to those whom i've shown faces yesterday..

i miss God (not that He's gone far away or something but it's me who strated to become lazy in my walk with Him).. He's always been there but i was just too bz with my studies n all that i've forgotten all the joy n blessings of spending quality time with Him.. i miss how funny God can be, how exciting it is to be a child of God, to c His will working out in the lives of others as well as mine in His perfect timing, to just be still n listen.. i can go on n on complainng n whinning bout me myself n i but it should be all about Him rite.. God is the same yesterday, today and forever.. The God who made rbs so magical to us is still the same God who can do wonders today and tmr.. if only we take the time to listen n submit ourselves to His will, if only we're willing to spare a lil more time for Him; after all wat's all these compared to everything that He's alr done for us, even though we don deserve them.. He deserves all our love n devotion so let's strive to make Him smile.. I'm sorry Lord for my complacency, for my refusal to allow U to take full control of my life.. sorry to let laziness n studies get in between us.. sorry for all the grief i've caused, must have been very painful n frustrating for You to bear with my many attitudes.. so i thank u Lord for not giving up on us, u r great indeed.. to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than we can ask or imagine, to Him be glory forever n ever, amen